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April 11, 2011 – A day in my life I will never forget…
We had already failed 4 IUIs, and had finally moved on to IVF. I (foolishly) thought we would find success the first time around and so had told almost everyone. When I got the call that day I was crushed. I was in disbelief. What’s worse? I was now being flooded with text messages and phone calls from people anxiously anticipating our good news!! It was nearly unbearable
Pretty surreal to me that as I lay here on bed rest after transferring our final embryo today at CCRM, I am announcing something that has been on my heart for the past few years. After 4 IVF procedures, we finally found success with the birth of our twins,I wanted so badly to give back! But, when 1 in 7 couples fights infertility, I just felt completely overwhelmed. The task was completely daunting. How could I possibly help everyone? Helping only 1 seemed almost futile….
And then, I’ll never forget how it all changed
I had my lining recheck yesterday, and was hoping for better news…
Even with the increase in meds, it has only thickened by .5mm. CCRM’s “optimal” number is 8, and I am currently sitting at 7.5. Ultimately it is our decision, so she told us to “think about it” while waiting to hear from the Dr. In the world of infertility, there are SO many variables, that this is an almost impossible task. I was truly struggling last night with what to do
So, I was scheduled to have my blood work and ultrasound last Friday, and the plan was to fly to Denver Wednesday, with a transfer on Friday.
Well….that’s not going to happen….
Everyone knows that I hate Winter! I hate the cold. I hate being cooped up inside. I hate wearing coats. I hate taking 20 minutes to put layers on the littles so we can go outside, etc. So, it comes as no surprise that the 1st day of Spring has been a date on the calendar I have always longed for! All that being said, it seems EXTREMELY fitting that my FET (frozen embryo transfer) has been scheduled…
Here’s your update…As you know, I had to go in to have a Hysteroscopy performed in preparation for my impending FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer) in Denver! And, as you also know, I’m terrified of needles….especially IVs! Anytime I need an IV, blood draw, etc. I prepare myself with lidocaine cream! Since I was unsure which hand they would use, I covered both! (I don’t mess around when it comes to IVs!!)
The time has come to start down the path to a hopeful baby #3. The emotional roller coaster it puts you through wouldn’t be worth it for anything else than the possibility of being able to hold another baby in our arms. We just weren’t ready…
When we began our journey into creating our family, I researched every single thing I could get my hands on. I knew it backwards and forwards. However, I was still searching for someone/anyone who understood…
However, I was still searching
For the past couple of months quite a few people have asked if our final embryo transfer was successful. Our original plan was to transfer our 3rd (and final) embryo in…
When I was here last, it was for the initial testing for our 3rd (and final) embryo. I had hoped that everything would go as planned, and they would clear us for transfer, but that wasn’t quite the way it worked out. Apparently I have some scar tissue and some sort of “mass” that needs to be “cleaned out” in order to give our little ice baby the best chance, so here I am…
In the beginning of our infertility struggle, I was an open book. I told anyone and everyone what we were going through. Why? I guess because I was naive enough to think that it would be a short struggle, and we would have our perfect little family on the first try. In the years that followed, I began building walls and shutting people out from what was going on. It wasn’t that I…
It took us three years, 4 IVFs, 1 FET, 4 IUIs, and way too many negative pregnancy tests to count until we were finally able to hold our long awaited miracles. Infertility can be isolating. Know that there is support out there!
As I look back on the past year, I realize my life has never changed so dramatically. 2013 will forever be known as…THE YEAR I FORGOT…..So yes, I forgot a LOT in 2013, but in doing so have been blessed beyond measure. Anyway, Sleep is overrated anyway, right???
It amazes me how different life can look in a mere 365 days. Arriving home from our very first “family of four” vacation, I find myself looking back on the past year of my life. One year ago today, Brandon and I were….