As I look back on the past year, I realize my life has never changed so dramatically.
2013 will forever be known as…THE YEAR I FORGOT.
Over the past 12 months, I have forgotten….
What it’s like to sleep through the night
What it’s like to have on clean clothes for longer than 10 minutes
What it’s like to be spontaneous
What it’s like to wash my hair more than 2x per week
What it’s like to eat a hot meal
What it’s like to watch an entire movie, or have an uninterrupted phone conversation
What it’s like to have the laundry completely done
What it’s like to run a quick errand, or grab lunch with a friend.
What it’s like to have “me” time.
Although you may think it sounds like nothing but a year of complaints, you couldn’t be more wrong. You see, in forgetting all of the above, I also forgot about…
The little voice that filled my head before each of our cycles saying “maybe this is our time,” only to be followed by the overwhelming disappointment each time we were told to “try again.”
The hundreds of phone calls I made crying to my sister because I didn’t know what to do, but I didn’t want to give up. (Thanks Angela!)
I forgot what it was like to revolve our lives around injection schedules, doctor appointments, and procedures.
I forgot about the anxiety of the almost daily heart beat checks (with my home monitor) and the terror I felt when I couldn’t find one, after we were finally pregnant.
Most importantly…
I forgot what it was like to walk around with a hole in my heart that I was certain was meant to be filled by children.
So yes, I forgot a LOT in 2013, but in doing so have been blessed beyond measure.
Sleep is overrated anyway, right???
